Date	Name/email Nom/email	What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13? Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
24 Jan 2006	Too Ashamed to Say	I'm so scared. I'm 26 years old and have considered suicide for over 10 years - but THANKFULLY, I have a conscience. I think about my parents and how crushed they would be, and I think about my brother and the disappointment it would cause. Someone said that suicide is selfish - they couldn't be more right. But, as much as I know all of this, I'm afraid it will eventually NOT be enough to stop my thoughts, my plans. I used to be like many of you - problems with my parents, feeling alone, etc etc that led me to these thoughts. But as I've gotten older, the issues have grown. I'm not supposed to think like this, I'm from a very prestigious family of doctors, I'm very educated - and I've always been full of smiles...on the outside. Just when I thought something was wrong with me, I met the most amazing man - and we have been together for a long time now. We have our own issues that I won't get into - but an accidental moment of unprotected sex led to pregnancy. I decided that the best option we had, the best for both of us, was to terminate it. I am reminded a MILLION times a day of my decision - how can I look at my parents and not be ashamed of the choices I have made? I don't understand- I have everything to look forward to. An opportunity for a successful career ahead, the plans of a wedding in the works - but right now I don't want any of it. I want to walk away and pretend I was never here - I want to erase my existance from this world. I have made too many mistakes to live with myself and to believe that I can be a good daughter, friend, sister, wife or mother. I am disgusted with myself...
22 Jan 2006	gamble (daz)	i have tried everything i can think of t finish it all i hung my self i slashed my wrists and i even jumped off a bridge i dint want t tell anyone why i was doing it because i was scared what my family would say when me and my girlfriend split up it nearly killed me in its self but now we are back together and im happy again, so i always say stop thinking bout the preasent and start thinking bout your future because it can only get better if you are reading this now cant it, i had support from my mate if you dont then you need to tell someone it really is a lot off your chest or if u want to ask people you dont know then this site is really helpful but in the end its up to you just think it can only get better
22 Jan 2006	anon	i think this website is amusing. obv im not saying that i think suicide is amusing. but i think its amusing reading peoples reasons and the total extreme deifferences in them. i think its funny when its totally obvious someone is exagerating there reasons as to justify their feelings. you dont need reasons to commit suicide. i also think its amusing that i rlly dont think this site is helping anyone. and SOME of the people on here seem to be very un intelligent and complete attention seekers. no offence. no one seems to be helping anyone. no one is even rlly taking notice. im not here to help you. because i stumbled across this site with no intentions of giving a fuck about it, and i dont. but i know there must be one person on this site who rlly is looking for help and rlly does not know where to turn, and to that one person, i pray that you read this: you dont need this site. at all. all thses people on here you dont even know. they cant help you. everyone goes through this feeling. absolutely everyone. i have. of course i have. some people not as bad as others. some people take actions other people dont. but everyone does go through it. so to that one person, get the fuck off this computer and go speak to someone. try your parents, i know how you dont want to tell them, for reasons that are different for others, my reasons were the guilt, didnt want them to blame themselves, i didnt want them to get upset or mad, i thought it would cause un necessary worry. but eventually one day i told them, and i can promise you it is never as bad as you imagine. or if your parents rlly arent an option, then speak to a friend. and if a friend rlly isnt an option then ring a help line, there are so many. but for god sake do not just let go, and do not get dragged into this site, your so beautiful just because your alive, and i know exactly how you feel, i rlly do, but for god sake, if i can live through it, then so can you.
21 Jan 2006	Ashley	I've posted here before and have always told of my past...now I wish to speak of my present. I am 17; I cut my wrists; I cut my back; I did it last week. The cuts are heeling; the scars are forming; they over lap. I DON'T DO IT BECAUSE I WANT TO DIE, I DO IT BECAUSE I WANT TO LIVE. When a person is alive, they can feel; they can feel love; they can feel sad; they can feel happy; they can feel pain; they can feel. That is what I want. I want to feel; Feel more than the blade of a knife; feel more than the warmth of my blood; feel more than thfresh wound in my skin. I DON'T DO IT BECAUSE I WANT TO DIE, I DO IT BECAUSE I WANT TO LIVE.
18 Jan 2006	Miss K	To all you searching for a way out; I was 13 a very long time ago but having read a lot of the posts on this site its become evident that being 13 now is not comparable to being 13 when I was young. Suicide had never crossed my mind back then and yet now I toy with the idea, even though society will dictate that being older and concequently wiser, I would know better that to think in such a way. But I want to point out that the notion of taking my life only plays in my mind, deep down I know that it will never happen. Its merely my mind giving me an option so that I dont feel as if I dont have any. You know that feeling of beign trapped? Where every possible thing that can go wrong does, and nothing that you say/do/think is good enough for those around you? Well, during such times teh best think to do is give yourself options; think what you can do to get yourself to stop feeling in that particular way. one of the options should be suicide, ideally the last. You see, the more options you have, the more it beings to feel like a plan...a map if you will. A map that can guide you out of your hour of darkness. And as you emerge from that place, bear in mind that suicide is an option. An option, but not the path.
17 Jan 2006	Lexee	Hi everyone my name is Lexee and I am from Connecticut. Okay I have found out 2 day that I have diagnosed wif this mental disorder. And now I know that I am beginning to get very depressed, and suicide seems 2 be a good way out. I DIDNT EVEN KNOW I HAD A MENTAL DISORDER! I thought I was normal. Ok I dont know how to describe this, but I will try very hard too. There were times when I was seeing and hearing things that were not really there and when I was actually hearing and seeing things THAT WERE there. But the thing is I couldn't tell the diffrence between my 'hallucinations' and reality. My hallucinations were actually so real and lifelike. Like one thing in my hallucinations my frend was trying 2 commit suicide and I actually belived that, even though it was all in my head, because it was so lifelike. I even thought others around me were mental, before i knew about my condition and I blamed them for things they didn't even do, but I thought they did them, becauise I saw them doing things in my hallucination like things. I am now taking medication.
17 Jan 2006	Dave	Hi im Dave in 28 and i know how you all feel by killing your self. but i got to say i tried it but it was a long time agaon cos i was so hurt by my ex who i feel in love with. but shit happens and you cant help how ppl feel but im here if you need somone to talk to and to be a mate to. my msn is wolvo_guy27@hotmail.com. also b4 u ask when i tried to kill me self i tried to hang by a rope but the thing snaped lol.. but in a way im glad it did cos im still here and life better for me now and if u did die then u only hurt ppl u love and maybe go to hell. anyhow thank you for looking drop me aline xxxxx
16 Jan 2006	Adam	im 15 and i wnt to die cause ever since ive turned 13 ive been gettin the blame for everything any1 does n i wnted to get it out my system so i tryed to kill ma sen didnt work i was gettin happy wid ma gf weve been goin out 3 months n now she wnts a baby and now she wnt stop moanin and its jst pissin me off and now shes preg wid ma kid by a condom splittin n she wnt get an abortion or nyfin so i jst wanna die
16 Jan 2006	Confusion with a K	its hard to live.. but when u finaly open urself ot someone and show how u feel and wut ur plans are for ur future, they break down and it stops you from doing wut u really want to do. when you feel the pain, finally are able to just finish the battle, you feel calm and ready. its an amazing feeling, its not even scary. but u try to say goodbye to someone you love nad it stops the feeling. you feel guilty.. suicide for me, it is the answer, but dont give up. im still here and so are you, something is keeping us here. we all just need to find out what it is that makes us want to stay and live our lives for that one thing.
15 Jan 2006	B	From just briefly skimming the contents of this forum, it is obvious that there is a mixture of people who find suicide a joke and some who are seriously battling with depression. Everyone, suicide is NOT something that people can take lightly. People who think that they're going to get attention from others because they are facing hardship and mental problems will end up wasting their lives. There is so much opportunity out there, and even though it may seem tough and useless at times, you can make yourself a great life if you try. But if you're going to whinge and complain on a stupid website about the things you hate and not actually do anything about it, then you're an idiot. It'd be a lot better if you got some help and tried to fix up your life, rather then blame others for being miserable enough to end your life. But I can also tell that for some people who can't get that help they need, this site can provide some support. I'm 15, and there were times in my past when I wanted to kill myself. I wanted to die, and I indulged in the self-pity that contemplating suicide often offers. You can only fight your depression when you realise that you are not the centre of the universe - everything does not revolve around yourself, and when things go wrong, you do not need to just kill yourself. Eventually, I realised that I was being immature and stupid, and I left my suicidal phase. But I still cut myself when I actively want to sink into my self-defeat, and I have damn ugly scars all over me to remind me of my stupidity. But never have I ever cut myself with the intention of committing suicide, because I knew that suicide is not the answer... I have been lucky. For all those out there that want to die, you need to know that, too. Suicide does not solve problems. It just eliminates them in the worst way possible.
14 Jan 2006	kin	im not under thirteen. i'm fourteen. life is only a living hell for me. i want to end it. at home, i can't please my mom: i'm not neat enough,i don't have enough friends, or my clothes aren't fashionably enough. at school, its too much. for everybit i try, it only gets worse. my mother and siblings hate me. my father too. my parents want a divorce because of me. they say i'm not respectful. they say i'm never good to them, that i always start fights. everytime i try to help, i only get blamed. my friends, if you could call them that, know nothing of me but my name. as quickly as i became their 'friend' they are willing to say shit about me. people are saying taht life is valuable, that noone should give it up. but then they talk about this wonderful place we go to when we die; worry free, a place where you can do no wrong. they call it heaven. what is so wrong w/ me wanting to go there?
12 Jan 2006	Mandy	Hey guys, I just wanted to post to tell you somting, I find very important. Just yesterday, I wanted to just die, nothing made sense, I couldn't stop asking myself, "why, why, why?!" I'd tried to hide my being suicidal from y friends, instead of talking to my friends about it, I put it here, as to not hurt their feelings. Unfortunatly, one friend of mine saw this site and saw my site, and eventually most of them found out. Mostly I was bombarded with pointless pity. No action. And then my quite possibly dearest friend found out, and this is what he told me... He said, "You remind me of some who just got shoved to the floor, be instead of getting back up, you just sit there, with you head hanging... You're life is like a diamond necklace thrown in the gutter; it's so valuble, yet so mistreated, someone has to pick it up out of the filth and make it new again." At first, I didn't understand what he was saying, and then I was listening to my music, and all of a sudden, I just got it. He meant that my life is worth somthing! I'm not going to tell you "omg! don kill urself, its bad!!!1" but I will tell you, if my life is truly worth something, your's must be too, your life is just like that diamond necklace in th gutter, but noone can pull you out unless you let them...
11 Jan 2006	UNKNOWN	I want to kill my self but I don't know how its seems easy but its really compilicated. I have messed up my life and I don't know how to fix it everyday I come to the same stuff and the same people telling my I'm a terrible person and everyone is better than me. And then trying to force to me to do things or threating and hurting me if I don't do them . I have hate for them and my parents scream and me and they tell me im the worst child anyone could every have and that everyone is better than me. And I try so hard to be normal but no one realizes abd excepts you while your trying to change. I've learned that if you start of acting like one way and you show people that that is who you are then they will always think of you as that they won't let you change into what you want to be that doesn't make a lot of sense i;m sure to you but i mean I showed people how studpic i was and how ugly i was and then after that i changed and i turned better prettier and i tried hard to change and i atually got exactly how i wanted to be i dressed a lot better like wore in style clothes instead of ugly clothes and everything. But the people still see you as how you once were and i hate it can't they see that if a person changes they want to be treated differently. The only way to start a fresh start in your life like with people around you is start all over. If you are in a school that everyone hates you except mabey your close friends then move and start acting how you want to be treated. From the begginging .And if your like me and your parents don't understand you. They just don't know how I feel and they think I have everything adn should be the happiest person. But I'm not they think i'm smart im the dumbest person and everyone but them knows it. And every time I think i'm doing soemthing good or anything i always get told it was terrible. When ever I think i look good people tell me how ugly i am but they truly dont relize what the fuck kind of a person I am infact I don't know if anyone does. Only the people that mabey I talk to online and that I show who I am to them. Then I show them my picture and they don;t think its ugly. Cuz even though i;m not the wost person alive and the ugliest piece of shit ever people know me as a loser and a ugly fucked up piece of shit cuz thats what i was before but then i changed but they don;t seem to understand that. I'v tried to cut myslef and to slit my wrists but ive given up that now because everyday i just hope that mabey my life will get better and that i will become happier and that people will come to understnad who i really am
10 Jan 2006	jason	I really don't understand the question any more than I understand the meaning of life. To me life seems little more than a suffering endurance test. I know other people out there are happy, but they have reason to be. They are loved, they are successful, they are popular and respected. I on the other hand, have none of those things. I live like a robot would live. I get up, eat, go to work, come home exhausted go to bed, wake up, eat and repeat. Nothing in this world interests me, not even women any longer. I want nothing that life has to offer - not a thing. There is nothing on this earth that I would want. Not a pool, a big screen t.v., or even a nice car. Nothing matters to me. This life of mine seems completely lost. What is the point? So many people feel this way, the number always growing. Men need women, and since feminism, fewer and fewer people find what they're really searching for I think. This world no longer offers a life of meaning. And I am simply searching for a way out. Given the chance to live life again, as a famous celebrity, with a beautiful wife and kids, a nice home, car you name it, I would say know. I couldn't bear to go through life again. Once is already more than enough for me.
10 Jan 2006	Ashley	I wrote this poem after my friend hung himself. I hope it helps some to understand suicides effects on everyone they think doon't love them. Suicide ------------- It changes us all But I was once told Everything happens for a reason. I don’t quite understand why I’m not sure I ever will. Why some one so loved And so close to your heart Would go and hurt you so. I don’t get it How some one so young Could feel so unwanted And do something so stupid. It’s beyond me. Death is forever No matter how it’s done God himself can’t reverse it And it makes no sense to me.
08 Jan 2006	non-suicidal	well...i was just browsing the net when i came across this website...actually, thats a lie. i'm pretty pissed at my parents right now. some people say, "oh my god, my parents just don't understand me" but im willing to bet my bank account that they understand you more than you think. however, in my case, i KNOW that they don't understand me. they are just sooooo...gah..there is no word in the english vocabulary to describe them. my dad is getting better...but my mom...holy crap. she is so insensitive, untrusting and selfish. i realize that many people are being beaten by their parents as we speak, so why should i complain if im not being physically abused? well, im not sure. it just seems to me that i have to bottle up all of my emotions...until i end up bursting. which i know will happen soon. oh man, here i am complaining about my parents when there are MUCH bigger problems out there. the thing is, i have friends and siblings who actually LISTEN to me (unlike the parental units), and i have to say that those are the only people who are keeping me going right now. i'll admit, i have had suicidal thoughts at one point in my life (because of my parents, of course)...i mean really, who hasn't?? but what im trying to say is that its not worth it to give others the satisfaction of you killing yourself. if you're all saying that you have no friends, that everyone is turning on you, then why would you do what they EXPECT you to do? i've always hated doing what other people wanted or expected me to do...i would always do the opposite. my parents tell me to clean the table (not ask), and i would simply make it dirtier....even though im a neat freak and i absolutely think dirt is disgusting. wow, im so off topic. im not giving you pity, cause i realize you don't want it. all you want is to be heard, right? thats all i've ever wanted from my parents, for them to listen, trust or love me. but, i honestly don't think thats ever going to happen, so do you know what i do? i MAKE friends who i know will listen to me and help me when im feeling low. i know that its not like you can walk up to a stranger on the street and say, "be my friend" ...of course its not that easy! but keep looking, its worth it when you find at least one friend who you like listening to and who will listen to you no matter what. eek, i write a lot...and i haven't really answered the question. the truth of the matter is, that i have no idea:) im not going to suggest you find god or get over it... just talk about it like you are on this website, and someone will listen. i read a lot of these emails and although i can't exactly sympathize with you, i want to help.
08 Jan 2006	bronwyn	hey im only 16 and i dont know how old this site is and whether or not anyone reads it or not but id like to help. first off i was once in your positions, only once did i have the guts to actually attempt anything more severe than cutting, but my mother came home early just as i was slipping through the noose. I am atheist so you know that i do not believe, but something must have kept me here. I never got councelling but the tremendous amount of support i got afterwards from my parents helped me. It made me realise that there are people here for me, even if its very few, and i would certainly not want to hurt the only people still holding out for me. i was 12 years old when i did this and i am now 16. I am still young but in those 4 years i have realised it wasnt worth it. Ive pulled through and now things just couldnt get better. To get the rainbow, you have to put up with the rain. Im not going to go into my own details anymore, would just like to let you all know that there is more out there. Hold on. Youre more beautiful than you all think. If you would like to chat about anything, post your email up here and i will add you to msn or drop you an email. Dont be scared to come forward. :) smile
05 Jan 2006	Immortality lost	Have you ever had one of those days. No... I suppose you haven't as you don't know what "those days" implies. The fact is, I can't explain it to you. You have to have one of "those days to have the vaugest idea what I'm on about. Sufice it to say that having one of "those days" is a very bad thing, and let's also say that a good portion of my days have been "those days". Now lets say that I'm going to kill myself. You notice I dont say want to kill myself, and in a bit you'll know why. I have a good life. I have never seen any of my loved ones die, have never been raped, beaten too badly, or bullied. Yet I will kill myself. I will do this because my life will not get better. Oh yes, my surroundings might change, I'll meet new people, have moments of true happiness, and live a normal pathetic little life. But for what. No one will remember me when I'm gone. Any good I've done will be undone by more bad. I have no delusions of changing the world. I see so much beaty everywhere, and I see a pattern to things. This world is a wonderful place to be, and I don't want to leave it. But I will. Because as much as I want to live, I know I wont. I will be alive, but I won't live. Everything good that will happen to me, I'll ruin. I'll just keep finding ways to make myself miserable, untill I won't see the beauty in anything anymore. I'm sorry that I have to die. But I DO have to. And that is it. And that is all.
05 Jan 2006	Kathrine	when i was 12 i was raped. this was my most horrifing day i was walking home from school when my best friend's boyfriend's car pulled over next to me.him and his brother offered me a ride home. and me being an idiot said sure. i got into the car and they started driving. then they pulled over at a vacant lot. then my friend's boyfriend's brother got out and opened my door and made me come out. then he told me to go into the abondaned buliding in the lot. i started to sense what was about to happpen so i started running away but he pulled out a gun and treatened to shoot me if i didn't stop. he came towards me and pulled me fromthe hair into the building. when we were inside he demanded for me to take my clothes off but i wouldn't do it. so he started beating me. i was close to passing out but i stayed strong and he started to take my cloths off then he started to kiss me and then started touching me you probably know what happened next. i was so disscusted i started to cry.after he stopped i layed there frozen for a while then he told me to put my clothes on and he threatend me that if i told anyone about what happened he would hurt me once more.he finally started taking me home he left me at the corner. that night i cut my wrists but my mom came in when she heard me scream.i was taken to the hospital immidiatly. weeks later i didn't feel well and started throwing up. i fainted and iwoke up in the hospital the next day. i found out i was pregnant. i still wish i could of killed my self!
04 Jan 2006	marco	Hi i would just like to say im 26 ive been smoking heroin since the age of 16 my dad used to kick me so hard blood would poor from my mouth my uncle lived with us who would try and stick up for us but he was much younger than my dad so he got the same as us so ill start from the age of 10 had so many kickings my eyes could and still do not focas on things mum took me away from my dad at 11 turned in to a motocross theif took them home ringed them stamped them sold them some we kept one day we was racing and my friend had a accident where some wire on the pitch hit him he died instantly he was 23 he had 2 kids and one on the way kept getting locked up mum had no money and i had to provide christmas day we ate bean toasties by now im 13 we stole a car went joy riding police came up beind us we did one my friend lost it round a bend the car toppled over and over everyone in the car bar me died i felt id cheated them horrible feeling we were in it together so in total at 13 id lost 5 friends and didnt think i deserved to live got a girl at 14 who was unlike the rest she was 23 and i realy fell for her on my 15th birthday she got run over and killed on her way getting me a guitar from then i knew i had to die coz every one i had was dead but i kept on met new friends at 16 got offerd heroin i used to hate heroin addicts used to shout to them bag head smack head then the table turned i confided in my uncle who i mentioned earlier im 26 now still smoking heroin trying to kick the habbit but its hard last year my uncle who was there for me tryed to cut his wrists i went to see him in hospital give him the normal lecture tryed to talk sense in to him and told him i loved him for the first time in my life i said you have 4 brilliant kids come on try fight it a week later he did something what i wont say coz i dont wanna give anyone any ideas but he did something what gave him multiple injuries on the way to the hospital he was saying sorry to the ambulance men and at hospital saying sorry to the nurses for bothering them he diead 10 minutes later see he lost his mum and dad and couldnt handle the pain so he ended it but what the fuck about us now we are in pain even though you dont see these paople every day dont mean they dont care i still want to die but my mum is it far on her but then is it fare on me living in hell coz i dont wanna hurt her and the answer is yes no mother should have to bury there child everyone feeling suicidle dont let the shitty world win you control it dont let it control you you decide your own destiny and fuck all the shit what you get theres paople who need you all even people you havent met yet even auntie dorris who you never see but sends you a card at christmas theres people who are left beind who carnt carry on without you my uncle has caused so much hurt and pain i loved him to bits but what he did was wrong we was there but we didnt show it and thats something we have to live with for ever i only told him i loved him when he was in hospital well maybe he needed to know before that and not just off me of everyone who knew him people just get so wrapped up in there own lives they dont seem to give a shit about ours but when they lose you,youve killed them too please people wake up and live life is one big road with lots of signsso when you contomplate death focass on your life love to yoyu all jj

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